I feel a resurgence of my 6-year-old self⊠that little warrior, goddess of a girl reminding me of who I was when I was little, before the world got its hands on me.
I know that this process of âme changing my lifeâ doesnât just end once I set fire to this list of things I hate about myself. Tonight isnât as much of a new beginning as it is a violent end and I know the real work hasnât even started yet.
Iâm going to follow this invisible red thread until I find myself again⊠until I finally figure out⊠who Iâm meant to be.
If ever I was running, it was towards you.
I love him in ways that I canât explain to other people. They donât understand⊠itâs not their fault.
I really believe that there is an invisible red thread tied between him and me, and that it has stretched and tangled for years â across oceans and lifetimes. I know that it wonât break because our souls are tied.
I just want your voice aimed at me again. I want to absorb the direction of your eyesâŠ
Everything hurts right now and nothing is helping because as the pain is getting worse â so is the love.
I want you to trust yourself, baby. Love is all that matters and youâve always known that. Youâve known, since you were a very little girl, what your life is meant to be aboutâŠ
I know that your soul is on life support and that you feel lost and like youâre completely spinning out of control, but youâre finding yourself â here, tonight⊠even in this darkness.
There is always light in the midst of the Darkness, even if itâs only a pinpoint in the distance. And when it seems as if there isnât, itâs just an illusion. Just a lie that the Darkness wants you to believe. Break through the illusion. Remember that youâre growing through it and towards the light. You are always growing towards the light.
We do not get to choose how we start out in life. We do not get to choose the day we are born or the family we are born into, what we are named at birth, what country we are born in, and we do not get to choose our ancestry. All these things are predetermined by a higher power. By the time you are old enough to start making decisions for yourself, a lot of things in your life are already in place. Itâs important, therefore, that you focus on the future, the only thing that you can change.
But if you forgive someone for something they did to you, it doesnât mean you agree with what they did or believe it was right. Forgiving that person means you have chosen not to dwell on the matter anymore; you have moved on with your life.
Today is a new day and it brings with it a new set of opportunities for me to act on. I am attentive to the opportunities and I seize them as they arise. I have full confidence in myself and my abilities. I can do all things that I commit myself to. No obstacle is too big or too difficult for me to handle because what lies inside me is greater than what lies ahead of me. I am committed to improving myself and I am getting better daily. I am not held back by regret or mistakes from the past. I am moving forward daily. Absolutely nothing is impossible for me.
When you work on something that only has the capacity to make you 5 dollars, it does not matter how much harder you work â the most you will make is 5 dollars.